Sepi Dalam Keterasingan

So I've not been updating my blog..
I'll promised Pinktulip (sniff sniff..mcm bau birthday gal gituk) that I'll update my blog today.
:-D


It's either I :
a) have been lazy
b) no time
c) got time but no Internet access
d) no mood
e) got mood but dunno what to write
f) when I know wat to write, i got no mood..

So pls circle the correct answer.
;-)


Where was I? Where have I been?
Life has been a constant worry with people around me.
Tension..
SHE has been on the run for the past 3 weeks..ended up me chasing her too.
To catch up wif her on feelings and situation..
To keep her company..
Sleepless nights..
Came to work wif panda eyes and jumbled emotions..


Sometimes i wonder, why are they created to cause 3 of us headaches + heartache
Maybe still not much on me but I believe SHE had gone through a lot.
Loads...and SHE, at least still going strong..but I know dat deep down, she's tired, exhausted dat she have to go through all this..


hanya kerana ikatan yang tak mampu diputuskan


Things would have been different maybe..if it happens to me..
I dun give a damn..apa nak jadi, jadi laa..
Kekadang kita nie serba salah ...
Bila buat jahat..orang tak suka..
Bila buat baik pun, orang tak tahu hargai..
Dah laa tuh, balik-balik kita jugak yg jadi mangsa..


Mangsa penderaan..
Mungkin bukan penderaan dari segi fizikal..
Tapi emosi, mental..
Ini, ku rasa, lebih bersifat mendalam..
Ia menghantui fikiran sampai tak khusyuk dalam sembahyang..
Ia memberi tekanan perasaan dan tekanan darah tinggi yang kerap kali melonjak naik
Tapi acapkali kita beristigfar, mengawal nafsu amarah serta perasaan..
Dan seringkali itu juga, kita yang mesti beralah..


Sampai bila?
Seringkali soalan itu ku bertanya dalam diri..
Seringkali ku memohon pada Allah s.w.t, agar dia memberi kami sedikit sinar cahaya ke dalam kegelapan yang sudah berkurun lama kita terpaksa hidup di dalam nya.


Walaupun begitu, aku berdoa, jangan lah sesekali kita mengalah.
Kita harus lawan hingga ke nafas yang terakhir.
Kita akan terus berusaha serta berdoa.
Dan ku harap, kemenangan adalah di pihak yang benar.

*deep sigh*


Kebelakangan ini keluhan ku dalam serta berat.
Perit.
Keadaan buat masa ini..
sepi dalam keterasingan

P.S: FE, sorry if my Malay too chim for u to understand..get Zake to translate, k.
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So, tomorrow the BIG day..
D& D day..
I know wat to wear already..maybe a few accessories jer..tuh pun klau sempat nak cari besok..
We have a room at Fullerton Hotel for committee members..
For us to change and dress up after running around tomorrow noon..
excited ...but dunno wat to expect..
Good + interesting lucky draw prizes..
Kalau ada rezeki, ada laa..
Enjoy the long weekend peepz..
Dun think I'll update tomorrow..eh..must update..somebody's birthday..